Unbuckled

And Fearsome

All day I had very different titles of the journal today and the most fun fact is that I cannot recall any of them now. I feel no existence of those ideas in my human brain anymore. I love building imaginary conversations in my mind, but all on a sudden I forgot all of them.

I am a very sensitive person and I don’t like being left alone or not being responded, whoever it is — friend, family member or anyone else. And it effects my mood very seriously, but I am trying to grow some resistance over it gradually, build ability to not to react.

But anyways because of this mood swings most of the anger goes onto my younger brother and mom,while both of them are like children to me. I try to repent later as soon as my mood changes though.

I am trying to create more focus and self control in myself in all spheres of my life- work, eating, sleep and so on. Although there’s been so much failure too but I am trying my best by not feeling much guilt about immediate past.

I am grateful that I have wonderful friends, who are also my colleagues and been with me for more than 7 years, and wonderful human beings around me including my closest friends or what can I say special individuals who I really adore for years for many reasons.

Life being incredibly tough nightmare, today it seems quite solvable, being able to dared with right set of tools and approaches — thanks to tech, strategies, mindset, religion and perseverance.

I always like the phrase, “Do More, Do More, Its never late”- so, tonight’s phrase remains as the very same. Good Night.

— Journal on 22nd October, 2018