The Beauty of Adversity

And Living in the Moment: No Blue November Day 12

I lost my wallet yesterday while going back home from the library and it happened kind of instantly. Then I was going to a shop for a snack and found it’s missing. Sometimes I drop it in the bag, as I forget a lot, and found its not there. In a blink of a moment I started to feel all kind of negative emotions.

Mostly in these kind of situations I vent my anger on the Supreme, Creator/God/Mother Nature/Whatever you say it, saying him you are enjoying my pain, while I am going through it. Anyways I went back to the Bus stop shouting, yelling, I felt tremendous energy through Anger and found its not there.

Anyways I can’t go back and rediscover the wallet there, as I do not have a time machine. So, what I can do is to accept it. I stopped and paused for a moment and went to a Coffee Shop and felt like crying, and let it feel, cried for a while. And then called my bank to block all my cards and my sister to block my mother’s card, as I had in my wallet. Although my mom was crying reflecting why this is happening to my son, I gave her some courage, saying its okay, and I will withdraw some money using Cheque.

Later I called a friend, borrowed some money, went back to Snack store, paid him money back. And I went to home, didn’t vent my anger on my brother, rather fed him medicine, I took some dinner and went to bed. I tried to sleep for a while and couldn’t. Then I realised I need some change for the morning, although I skipped gym, I was feeling sleepy, I had some sleep debt from previous night, I went downstairs to buy some fruits and got some change.

And went back and slept well… .although I intended to wake up at 4 but I woke up at 6, kind of used the snooze button, but this is what I am trying new now-a-days using the 4–5 A.M. window, and leave the most toughest, mind boggling things for that time period, I need to work on it today too. Sleep is important, also waking up early is also important.

The people who have heard about the pickpocketing incident so far everyone sympathized, I don’t know but later at the night I felt a little bit sorry for the guy who did the pick-pocketing, I had only about $10 there, he couldn’t even buy him a good meal with that, I don’t know but I have spend a lot of times far more money then that on a good meal.

Its just the hassle of collecting the Card, I have calculated it will cost me more money than the actual money, I am really sorry for you, you took a great risk, If you were caught, people would have beaten you, insult you or do worse things. Anyways life is good, I am really happy that I managed the situation well.

I feel good although I have a back pain and lot other things to deal with this day — the only moment I have to deal with, be present or be alive.

with this — on a Misty morning..

Shihab Udin

13th November, 2019