My Heart Bleeding-4

An angry morning,

and previous night full of continuous masturbation…

no picturisation, no faces were coming up…

All I was with only testosterone making me horny.

then I sleep with sleeping pills,

awake again with schizo brother, haunted by monster

restless, always messing up,

then I walk kilometres and kilometres..

Outburst, then again I realise, he is helpless,

Am I helpless?

No, Not, I am here for myself…

He says he has nobody, I say I am here,

When I say myself ..I have nobody,

then I realise deep in my heart ..

I am here for myself and that is enough.

I am here standing up for myself.