It’s not the Work, its the Stress, Anxiety, Fear

And Peripherals : No Blue November Day 30

Yesterday I was trying to submit my tax return online. But unfortunately after trying the whole day I was not able to login in the system. I found out at day end I cannot access it through my Mac, I tried from a Cafe, it didn’t work there too. The PC required a little bit of update and the network was too slow.

And the guy was hurried to close the shop, he gave an excuse that his mom was sick. I didn’t push him enough to keep the shop open. Later I came to home and tried a little bit more on my Mac. Then gave up and fell asleep.

So, my acquired self knowledge is not the work itself that gives me all these negativity and worse feeling such as

• Stress
• Anxiety
• Fear
• And all other symptoms such as binging on food, continuous masturbation and feeling of helplessness.

Whatever the work is I can always accept failure and move on to some other things such as probably I have to pay some fines for not being able to pay tax return on time. But it does not matter.

What matters is the feeling of miserable and reduction of my quality of time through this events.

I am trying to understand it more deeply and enhance overall quality of my time.

I will add a mind map here, sorry I couldn’t resist myself to do one,

With this I will conclude the No Blue November Series, I enjoyed with my full soul Writing it. I will add a summary too with the full directory and stay tuned if you want to follow my Detox December series.

With this on a Cold Morning from a Small Town of Northern Bangladesh,

Shihab Uddin

1st December, 2019