I Just Felt Like Writing

Weird thoughts, Keyboard and Me

This morning, I had this most surprising epiphany that I need nothing, nobody, no external validation or measure of self worth. All I need, will ever need is within me, inside me, I just need to access them with a sharp, equanimous and present mind.

I will fuck up, mess up again and again, in fact that’s what this mistakes makes me whole human, an ordinary, erroneous creature. And the promise of mine for today is to be here for myself, not reaching out to anybody, anything …

Focus on cultivating a Soul, inner soul. I guess its becoming messy again like everything else inside my life.

In fact life is as it is, a messy experience with zillions of mistakes, faults. I will always feel bad that I haven’t done enough for my family, my brother, my sister, mom or Could have done more to persuade the last girl with me or I did not do enough to make me accomplished.

Then I again realise, at least I have done something… whatever it is, that is enough for the time-being.

At least I am here for myself, whole, with my full senses.

With this I will conclude…

Shihab Uddin

21st January, 2020