Hope

And Bittnerness

I met her through some internet and talked a lot through here too. And kind of felt something deep inside, I don’t know why. I thought may be she could rescue me from all the odds, then I felt loved. But I mistook. I am trying to let her go, and I have to.

I learned a lot tools of processing emotions on my own lately, not depending on anybody. And this is one of them, this is my judgement free journal.

I have a feeling women’s are great source of distraction for men, specially for me. I waste a lot of time looking at special parts of women or being distracted by those. Also few times fantasising.

Another times I feel as a toolset, being used by a lot of human to fill up their void. But funny part is that I never find them in my odd times.

Oh, Gossip and the first hour is crucial, Today’s lesson — If I gossip I will gossip like all the other folks during my whole life, which I do not want to.

Also forcing to be pace at my first hour is also important, I want to feel at the end of the day I have done something with my day, my life and I have lived.

That’s it for today, I am trying to love myself — For better and worst.

Thanks almighty for gifting me another wonderful day to live and breathe.

Shihab Uddin

Shekhertek, Mohammadpur, Dhaka-1207.