Growing Up As I like

On Life and Etc

(1)

I am writing a blog after quite a lot time, recently I have identified I expect a lot of things from myself and it kind of creates a lot of frustration in myself. And sometimes I end up doing nothing at all because of this excessive demand.

I am currently on my thirtieth year of life, but of course that is my physical age, from my mind I still feel like a five years old, kind of way too much curious about the world and how things work, how life happens or how people live in this stupid world.

I don’t really know either how I happen to survive almost everyday in this vicious, somewhat beautiful world.

(2)

When you are 30, there’s two common question that are being asked by everybody in a conservative society,

One- is the marriage question

Two- Job Security, Career Stability for the next years of life,

Being honest I don’t really have any concrete answer of those questions till now.

On Marriage, I tried approaching women’s I like last few years or so but did not work out. Then I tried to do arrange marriage, that turned out to be more disgusting and disastrous. And also I have no desire to create hassle in someone’s life marrying her without a bit of minimum attraction.

Finally my decision for this topic for now will be to keep an open mind, but keep myself calm, quite about the topic, not letting myself become frustrated about it.

And about job security, I don’t really have any answer, Cause I cannot go back and try to look for Government jobs now. So, the only way I have now is to enjoy this insecure life, play with it.

(3)

I don’t know If I am demotivated or not but I think I am not creating that much happy moments in my life. I want to be more happy in each day I am living, create moments that matter, challenges myself fully and creates a better experience for me.

It’s like being happy in my life, at this very moment, which I am failing continuously but I would love to know better strategies to resolve this, still now I am wondering on it.

Hopefully I will have a better solution on it very quickly or so.

Best

MSU, Just trying to survive somewhere in the world

19th February -2019