Fighting Dysthymia

And Processing Emotions Solely

I Started this morning being pessimistic, having absolutely no hopes at all. A couple of notes about my recent happenings-

• I was fired recently from my job
• I feel like I have loved a woman who told she does not have any interest in me so far, she has been saying for nearly long time but I have a habit of falling for unavailable women during my whole life time and I feel a lot broken inside because of that
• I am going through a bad marriage of life

On the positive sides

• I have money to feed myself thanks a lot for being prepared
• I have found sometime to work on myself, rebuild myself
• I have become active, working out daily
• Although Psychiatric mediations are giving a lot of dizziness but I have been able to sleep for quite a while.

I am trying to process emotions on my own, rather than going backward again in the negative loops. It’s I who have to do all of it, It’s I who have to process everything.

Life is wonderful, although I feel a bit odd now but It will pass, I will feel better and I will do things better — -

And I will survive.

Notes on Emotions — Sunday September 8, 2019