Feelings and Behaviour Log

Morita Therapy : Stuck with Bad Feelings

I am struggling to develop my concentration muscle, I wrote a log of what are the things that are bothering me to stay in truly present moment and create my best self … Or in other words being fully equanimous,

• From Present : Thoughts, Assumptions and Planning about future events.
• From Past: Wounds, Guilt, Emotions from past events.
• About future : Imagination, Expectations, Hopes and Dreams made up in my mind.

Anyways I am trying every single day, but I feel its probably in my innate human nature. What most worries me is society and people. Yesterday another women in the library came to me starting complaining about why I don’t talk with her, as far I remember I only shared lunch with her another day. It’s funny, I know the third day we will converse she will ask why I am not going to abroad and what are my plans about marriage.

Non attachment sounds a great idea, Stopping over-sharing and maintaining strict personal boundaries is also another. It’s very important in fact for living in a society where I am living in right now — where people always people try to fraud other people being paternalistic.

Another most important thing is, humans are the creatures who feel great looking at other peoples misery, I feel like crying listening to someone’s death or bad condition. That’s why I don’t read news, I see all these bad news and end up crying or sobbing for quite a long time.

Everyone has the right to live their best lives, anyways I am struggling to complete the coursework and take control of my concentration, listening and actual body muscles, I have more than 20% body fat which I need to reduce at least by 10%-15% within next quite a few years.

With these I will conclude for today…