Differentiation

And Processing Emotions Alone

Recently I read something about Bownian Therapy, which seemed really interesting and I felt I can make use of it. The core theme is how much I can differentiate from all the things of my life, I will be able to focus more on myself, my goals and my dreams.

Apart from Bownian, other important thing I learned practice of emotional Self Reliance- i.e Joy, Sorrow or Whatever it is keeping it within, processing it solely.

Apart from Writings from Nassib Taleb, this has given me enormous amount of strength, two emotions currently I am struggling to deal with, one — is anger, mostly about my brother or all the negative things that has happened to me in past or happening now and attachment- to irrelevant people.

I had already decided and wanted to practice this year as the year of less bullshit in my life. It seems I am quite ahead in that path, but it will take time.

Such as not making assumptions, not expecting from other people or not using my precious emotions being worried or anxious other people and letting go —

Self healing and Coping with myself and the world and living Consciously, is a great thing to be achieved, rewiring sub-conscious and winning against all the bad habits that I have developed over the years will take quite a while to get rid off.

But All I can do right now, from today is to challenge myself one day at a time, do something at least each day, each hour.

Oh, I took an interview today for a job, though it seemed worthless but I need to learn to be more authentic and more strong in interviews and that’s what I regret from today’s experience.

Journal on September 11, 2018

Shihab