Closure of My Writing Therapy
And on the Eve of No Blue November
Writing has always made me, I always share with people that I am a writer by heart, that means its just the keyboard and weird thoughts in my mind, even blindfoldly creates it, in fact I am typing closing my eyes( full disclosure: I can type blindfoldly using my windows extension keyboard, still I need to be adept in my mac keyboard to do it) , letting ideas flow in my mind authentically, I am trying to live an honest, authentic life to myself, it does not mean I don’t lie day to day basis.
I Still lie, I lie a lot but I do that on purpose and for the sake of living in a world I don’t understand.
My writing therapy started a month and few days before, when I had run out of budget for taking therapy( I spent a lot of money last year taking therapy though) , then I started to wonder in my mind, how would I survive or take control of the monster inside me, I was searching online, reflecting within, then I found this idea.
I enjoyed the whole journey, in fact it wrote itself, kind of transformation of the writer by his own writing or more bluntly it carried my own vessel, my entire being, whole self. I am publishing a directory here, with one-liners if at any point I would like to go back and reflect. For note, I write for myself mostly, as I enjoy doing the craft and it gives me tremendous joy, also joy comes to me rarely with very few elements of life. That’s why I keep doing it on a continual basis, almost everyday.
Day 1: A Day Spent Literally Well
Day 2 : Peace, Tranquility and Calm
Day 3: Taking Control
My Goals of Trying to Remain Alive is Dwindling
Day 4: A Meditative Morning
Day 5: An Incredibly Beautiful Morning
Day 6: A Blissful Day Ahead
Day 7: Healing and Coping
Day 8: A Wonderful Cold Morning
Day 9: A Hot Shower and A Good Mood
Day 10: Blues Continued
Day 11: A Morning Went on Observing
Day 12: Forgive and Forget, More Body, Less Mind
Day 13: More Guilt Free and Less Thinking
Day 14: I woke up at 6 Today and Prayed
Day 15: Uniformity and Self-Doubt
Day 16: Looking Back Within
Day 17: I am happy to Let Go
Day 18: I am here for Myself
Day 19: Hypnosis is a Great Tool
Day 20: My Planning worked Almost 80% Yesterday
Day 21: Listen to Your Heart
Day 22: Common Humanity: Its not Just only Me
Day 23: Take it Slow
Day 24: Stop Projecting Forward
Day 25: Staying Grounded
Day 26: Preparing for Zero Blue Month
Day 27: I am Whole
Day 28: It’s Okay to Slip Off
Day 29: I Learned Something About Distraction Today
Day 30: I Bursted Yesterday
Day 31: Avoiding Perfectionist Trap
Day 32: Setting Intention
Day 33: Standing Up Where I can Feel My Senses
Day 34: Managing People is Always Hard
Day 35: It’s okay to Not Feel Good Sometimes
Day 36: I am the Dog I am Training
Day 37: I am Capable
I don’t know what the hell I am doing with my life now-a-days, but I am enjoying the journey, I am loving it and that’s what matters for now.
I hope if I sometime come back to this at some point later in my life, I will find the very same amount of joy, that I found creating it.
with this ..
All Good Wishes for a wonderful month ahead…
Shihab Uddin
2nd November, 2019