A Tragic Ending of a Beautiful Day

All I have is myself is with me

Right now I feel like how I have to live, every single day when I just try to pick myself up from all the drudgery and odd things, than something happens.

Today was worst, I requested my brother not to pick up anything or do not go to kitchen and he did the quit opposite. He had messed up the complete kitchen, poured the whole dirt inside the kitchen and took a lot of those dirt in my wardrobe.

I could not control my temper, I don’t know how many times I have hit him, wit whatever item I could find in my hand, and broke all those things. I simply don’t have any idea or patience to deal with my life and everything now.

Today I had a good day in library, I completed eighty percent of my to do list. And here in home, I had hit my brother, my home is completely messed up and I don’t know how much valuables I have broken. My hand is also hurting now, my brother cannot share his feelings but he was crying for long time.

I simply do not know any way to communicate with him now. All I know is to sit and ground myself. I called my friend, whom I had given a large sum money for a year, luckily he picked. He could not offer any solution though.

Anyways right now I am crying for half an hour looking back on my helpless life, right now I cannot admit him to hospital as I do not have enough money. Plus I do not have any other option, if I go to anywhere they will try to rob me looking at my condition.

Everything is becoming more and more worser day by day. And in this moment..I simply don’t know what to do .. and how to manage anything …